things I have learned in 2021

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I can't sentence structure, so list:

• I really should have backed up my PC ebook settings into a different folder before I uninstalled+reinstalled.
• Difficulty swallowing is a symptom of dementia.
• The Croods movies are surprisingly good.
• Funerals suck even harder when you're in the next-of-kin row.
• The old "I'm recovering from surgery" excuse only lasts until the next relevant person needs and gets surgery.
• I thought grief would feel like intrusive thoughts of sorrow, but it's mostly feeling like a thick, foggy static/panic that is hard to think through and also everything non-physically hurts.
• Dhalgren is confusing and long. No, like, way more confusing than you're imagining.
• Being a mom keeps getting harder. Always worth it, but ever harder.
• I do not like reading a book with death magic, finding death abruptly all to pertinent to my daily life, and finding that the next book on my to-be-read pile starts at a fucking deathbed. Do Not Want!
• I can't even fathom how much my mother must have done to help me throughout my entire life. So often, I didn't even see it. Now it's gone and I am at sea.

Stats:

• Percentage of household requiring emergency medical care in 2021: 100%
• Time since last crying jag: <1 hr

Found and reposted this and now I shall have a hard cry again before breakfast.