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Somehow I got in the habit of just barely keeping house: dishes and laundry would get done, but very little else would. That has caught up with me, as tomorrow my home needs to be close to maximum tidiness, so I have spent today scrubbing and wiping and airing out. I'm enjoying the result.

I haven't written more on my roleplay-like story, but I did start logging when and why I wasn't writing. I decided I may as well use my character accounts to post my excuses more or less in character. Today's post used wording along the lines of "I'm busy but I'll return later, with great joy" and then I couldn't resist letting another character (Artemisia) hijack the thread with a reply that still makes me laugh:

So when you're done, you'll be back to ketchup with relish?

So yeah, whatever worries I have had about not finding my characters' voices are nicely quashed by that bit and assorted others. That's quite the cheering discovery.

My computer is having a good day today. So far it's only frozen up once. If that holds, it'll be the all-time record. For comparison, yesterday was three times; Thursday was eight before I stopped bothering to tally them.

I've been tempting my muse out a tiny bit. I set up a private spot where I can sort of roleplay my characters off each other, just to try to keep them active in my mind. I've been writing a story there, one little post at a time.

It is a joyous mess and it is mine. It's more fiction writing than I've managed in months. I'm just trying to write a little bit every day. I missed Friday because Friday sucked; no matter, I picked it up Saturday.

If I can keep my little roleplay-for-one going, I hope to branch out and get back into some real roleplay. I'm testing myself a little to see if I can keep writing and continuing. That way, if it falls apart, at least I haven't left another person dangling, waiting for me to get back to them.

That was the plan, anyway. I got a gentle invitation to roleplay today and for the first time in a good long while, someone deep in my head spoke up and said, "You could, y'know."

Yeah. I think I could. But before I get going, I'd like a little assurance that I can keep going.

I'll keep working on it. I'll get there.